By Davyon Johnson
Looking into the past of a story seems like such a privilege to me. The childhood years of my
existence seem like looking into a fictional story. Which I think is wonderful because whether your story is good or bad, you have a tale that you’ve gone through that does not exist anymore.
My childhood, although in most eyes wouldn’t seem to be unique or exquisite, was like heaven on earth for me. As a kid, and as a human, that just got into the world everything felt boundless, even still this existence feels so surreal, and I don’t understand how, or why this is happening.
It’s hard for me to focus on one specific story or event in my life because there are so many being created every millisecond, the countless events of happiness, sadness, anger, pain, this life feels like one big expression of some sort. Like something that is just happening, like the itch on my arm or the curiosity that sparks in my brain for a second. One thing that I cannot fathom as one single human being is that my story is 1 of 7 billion other humans, which reside on 1 of 100 billion other planets. To think in the long term the human story is a story in itself which makes me a part of that story.
This entire experience that I’m having is my story, although there are small events that happen throughout this story, the story isn’t finished. Feels like watching a movie before my eyes, events throughout movies are hard hitting for sure but the movie doesn’t stop until it’s finished telling the whole story, which makes the small events and scenes feel pointless. There’s even sometimes where I’ll watch a scene in a movie and say, “They could’ve left that out, haha,” because after seeing the full story you see that everything is so much bigger than that one event. All the events together make this huge package of a story.
Just like my story, I'm just a scene in a movie. Humans are just a scene in the movie, this planet is just a scene in the movie, and I love the good and bad in these movies because without them there wouldn’t be a movie. Not a movie worthwhile anyway. I’ve never seen a good movie where it’s sad the entire time or happy the entire time. Changes in the story are what make it worth experiencing and watching.